7.8.05
I think sleep (lack of) is seriously getting to me. i.e. sleep more (fat hope), but anyway. do not try to change what cannot be changed, or you will just ending up tired, looking really silly, or both.
I thought I'd never see a friend break down because of popularity (perceived lack of). Girls I can understand, family problems I can understand, schoolwork problems I can understand, cca troubles I can understand, but popularity? (and in godforsaken RI?) Its almost as bad as crying because you got 36/40 and fell in the bottom half of the class (which has happened to uh. certain people before)
And what's worse is that he doesn't strike me as the person to be bothered by this sort of... frivolous stuff. And he's gone all plastic already, attracting more plastic people (the wrong people?)
Or maybe it goes deeper beyond that, to simple loneliness. We are all lonely in this place, with the exception of a few (bloody) lucky beings. Either 1. live with it, or 2. do something appropriate about it, not some desperate fling.
hard words but they express how frustrated (and disgusted) i am. you were much happier, more likeable then.
but as always, its your choice (: chin up anyway.
ate your heart out at 8:34 PM
