13.8.05
'i decided.
i shall go back t the happy self i was a few weeks ago.((:
i shall be happy,oh yes i shall be.
(hahahahaha im starting t sound like ive got a split personality.)
ive been too fuckin emo and i gotta stop it,haha.'
- 13th august 2005
i think people like to lie a lot on blogs. its not what i think, its what i want you to think how i think.
or rather, people like to become plasticky online. its not how they really are, its what they want to be.
besides, its real hard to tell how someone is from lines in an msn chat window.
sometimes i think of certain acquaintances i would have liked to be closer to, if not for this and that (moo). i suppose they've all got their little cliques and everything already, but in the end i guess it boils down to a lack of balls on my part.
sometimes i guess being too cliquey is harmful. sure you've got this group of really close friends, but that means there'll always be outcasts
. people who don't fit in, and sometimes due to no fault of their own. and they must be really lonely.
just imagine the number of people you could have known better if the blinders weren't there; most of them are nice, really.
in the meantime smile a little wider, laugh a little less fake, stand a little straighter
ate your heart out at 11:45 PM
